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There's a lady at church that is always radiant with joy. My fellow Providence members will know who I'm talking about without even saying much more. It doesn't matter what she has faced or how bad her external circumstances are, she is absolutely JOYFUL. I'm convinced she sweats the radiance of Jesus. Oh how encouraging she is. I'd love to be so saturated in Him that I sweat His radiance. This past Sunday I spent a few moments talking to her and I told her I hoped she had a good week. Her reply was : "Oh I'll have a good week!" I told her how much I loved seeing her joy and how encouraged I was by her confidence in the Lord. This is a woman who fights her battles on her knees and from the victorious stance she has in Christ. I want that. What about YOU? Where do you fight your battles? Too often I fight them with my mouth venting or with my fingers texting instead of with my knees bowed in submission and prayer to the One who already knows my battles and has won the ultimate victory. To type this vulnerability out makes me feel silly that I wouldn't go straight to my knees, but I identify with Paul so much from Romans 7:
15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.
21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin. ESV
If Paul, the great apostle, struggled with sin, you can rest assured that I struggle. I really would love to run to Jesus as a first response instead of when I'm at the end of my rope with all my weakness exposed, but too often I just don't. Once again, I identify with Paul from 1 Corinthians 12:
7 So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ESV
I can't tell you the number of time recently I've sat down in the rocker to rock my sweet JohnDavid and just felt utterly weak. I ask the Lord to remind me that when I am weak, He is strong. I hope at some point during my sanctification I learn to go to God before I'm weak and exhausted and stained with so many sins, but if not, it's comforting to know that when I can't go on anymore, He can. I read this blog today and just loved it so I wanted to share:
Whatever your load is (homeschool, marriage, raising children, work inside the home, work outside the home, etc.) this is the truest statement:
"The truth is, My Load is heavy for me, too. And it is by the grace of God I carry it."
Let us carry our loads for His glory! Let us fill up with Him so that we spew His joy for others to see.